My life now.

…Not a poem… yet… ๐Ÿ™‚ …
I found a job. After 3 months of countless rejections – I got it!
Finally I have decided that my best option for now is to be “live in companion for elderly”. And I offer to work for very low salary hoping that I don’t have to work all day very hard, and hoping that those elderly are going to be nice…??? Oh, well……
So I’m living now with two very old sisters – with dementia!!! It is very hard, because they don’t even understand why I’m here. Oh, well, if things don’t work out, I will go somewhere else.
And I’m amazed that my health is mostly okay. They say: Stress will kill you. But somehow I’m still alive. Will to live is the best medicine. If you have the reason to go on, you just won’t dye. I have got two reasons: I have to keep blogging and finish my book.

Well, one more curveball for me. Three weeks ago I developed a new health problem: Gout! I think it’s all because of to much stress and wrong diet. God, how I’m going to handle this all. So now on top of everything else I have to deal with pain. My hands and legs. And because my liver is not okay I have to be careful with painkillers.
Getting up in the morning is the biggest challenge. My Angels are helping. Thanks God, so I don’t have to ask the old ladies for help… ๐Ÿ™‚ …

I’m going to be okay.
Special diet. Cinnamon with Raw Honey. Coconut Oil. Cranberry Juice. – For gout.
Kava-Kava for stress.
White Willow Bark capsules for pain.
And I’m waiting for one more miracle………

Thank you all for reading. You are my inspiration. God Bless.

106 thoughts on “My life now.

  1. You have a great attitude and are very very brave, and thats what will get you through this. Congratulations on your new job too. Stay positive, sending good thoughts from me and my Guardian Angel your way.

  2. I hope you can find a way to talk with your 2 elderly charges! It might be fascinating to get a glimpse of what their lives where like. But, they might be too far gone to reminisce… Glad you got the job! It’s always easier to find another job when you’re currently employed! Be well!

  3. Hope your gout gets better soon. If you end up blogging about your two patients, it might be interesting to read–although I know it would be mostly for stress therapy for you to write. Hope your real writing project stays on course and you stay well. Caregiving is taxing even for healthy people.

  4. Prayers for the new job to go well, to give of yourself so selflessly – even when your gout is flaring up – is admirable and strong. The sisters may give you more insight and writing flare than you anticipate. Can’t wait to read your next entry. Take Care!

  5. Anna, you should also change your blog name to cancerkillingrecipeofwill! Good luck in your new journey, just pretend the old folks are two year olds, and don’t worry about pleasing them, they forget within seconds…lol also, with gout, don’t eat red meat or drink beer at all…both can cause it to crystalize and swell within hours! Take care, and prayin for ya!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. First of all, congratulations on the new job!!! Next, I’d like to offer a couple of suggestions that I know work from personal experience. Gout, as well as arthritis, is caused by too much uric acid in the body. A natural detox that will flush the uric acid is cherries. Eating about a pound of them, to start, will flush the uric acid. (Had an ex that had gout and I’ve suffered from arthritis for decades.) You can also cleanse your liver through the use of dandelion root tea. The Chinese and East Indians have used it for millenia to keep the liver in good working order. Just a couple of thoughts that might be of some help to you. Many blessings coming your way!!!

  7. God give you all te strength, love, patience and wisdom you need in your new job. And healing wherever you need it . You are a great example and inspiration – thanks for your blog. And thanks for looking in on mine.

  8. congratulations on your job – I also pray for healing for you. Stress does have a way to coming out in different ways. Blessings to you as you start your new journey….

  9. Hi Anna. I too am over fifty, not battling cancer, but experiencing the inexorable decay of this jalopy in life, my body. I have found incredible relief and inspiration in the care of my Traditional Chinese Medicine practitioner. I wish I had discovered her sooner ๐Ÿ™‚ Is this an avenue you’ve explored?

    I’d like to tell you a funny story about dementia. I don’t think dementia is a laughing matter and I mean no disrespect, but I find humour helpful in difficult situations.

    When I was doing home support service work, I provided respite care for a client whose regular caregiver was on holiday for three weeks. The first day I arrived to make his meal and clean up, he said, “You’re the new girl aren’t you?” I thought they had exaggerated his disability since he obviously recognized that his regular worker had been replaced. I introduced myself and proceeded to spend a few hours getting things in order. I arrived the next day and every day thereafter to be greeted with, “You’re the new girl aren’t you?” So I introduced myself every day for three weeks and had a wonderful time with my client. There’s something refreshing about starting work with a clean slate every morning ๐Ÿ™‚

    Wishing you strength and healing,


  10. Congratulations on your new job and I hope it works out for you. I will keep you in my prayers and think good thoughts for you. Dementia is a difficult road to navigate. Those ladies are very lucky to have a compassionate person like you to help them.

  11. I see that one of your goals is to provide “hope” for others. You might enjoy this thought. “Hope is being able to hear the music of the future. Faith is being able to dance to it.”

  12. Hi Anna! Congratulations on the job, and thanks for stopping by my blog and liking the Blog love post. Thank you for sharing your journey on your own blog, I wish you all the best! Much love from Sweden.

  13. Congratulations on the new job! And I feel for you with the gout…my husband has had it…and has to take Allopurinol daily to keep it away – and it works. I don’t know if this is an option for you and you may have already discussed it with your doctor.

    Sending you a prayer…gentle hugs!

  14. Hi Anna, it’s great to hear you’ve found a job! Who knows, maybe it will help your health… wait and see how the trade “worry about finding a job” and ” having stress from your job” works out!

  15. Hi Anna! So glad you enjoyed my poem “Our Earthly Journey”…thank you for the “like” : ) I’ve read your posts, and your are such an inspiration. I’m now following your blog, and look forward to reading your future posts. God Bless You.

  16. I was just feeling sorry for myself when I saw your “like” of my last post (Black Gold on The gateopensinward) so I caught up with your recent offerings. Wow. Hang in there. We all have to keep our chin(s) up and have hope. I’m keeping you in my thoughts for a better tomorrow.

  17. I’m glad to hear that you got a job, but maybe you can continue looking while you’re working.. For some reason, it just seems easier to find a job when you already have one. Maybe you should start out with one person. My doctor told me that if my parents lived together (well, mom & step-dad) that they would need TWO live in sitters. I don’t know where you are, but here the rate is about $13- $15 an hour, but in Atlanta I think they are paying somewhere around $17 an hour. Just keep checking cuz I know there are a lot of people out there who need a sitter. Or, you can do like my unemployed sister-in-law who became a dog sitter… LOL Sending blessings….

  18. Thank you for the like on “Acceptance.” I know someone who experienced gout and we read online drinking cherry juice can help, not sure if they did. Also, I would like to recommend a memoir by Anita Moorjani, “Dying To Be Me”

  19. Thank you for stopping by my blog, and congratulations to you on your job! And just wanted to add – my boyfriend drinks a tablespoon of ACV in water every day to create a more alkaline environment and help combat his dermatitis. Another post mentioned an issue with acidity, so wanted to throw that out there. I am not fond of the taste when I accidentally drink his water, but he’s adapted to it. Blessings to you!

  20. Hi, Just wanted to thank you for taking the time to read and ‘liking’ my blog I don’t get many followers, so to see a further four or five likers, is a red letter day. and reading your post, my heart goes out to you, I wish you health.

  21. Thank you for finding and liking my blog. Congratulations on the new job! I am sure it will be challenging, but you’re doing something very important.

  22. Thank you for stopping by my blog.

    I did the job you are doing for many years and it can be lonely at times.

    Wishing you healthy times and I am glad I found you..

  23. I am pleased to hear that you got a job, though I feel that coping with two elderly ladies with dementia may be ‘a bridge too far’ for anyone, not just for you! Gout can be very debilitating, so take care of yourself. Thanks for always checking in with me in Norfolk. I am so glad that you are still around, and still fighting. Regards as ever, Pete x

  24. It sounds like you are doing a lot of good work, both for yourself and others. That must feel very satisfying, even as health and old age take their toll. if I get as far as 65 I hope to be as energetic and positive as you are. Keep up the good work!

  25. I hope the new job doesn’t turn out to be too taxing and that somewhere along the way you have some fun!

  26. Good on you. Loved reading your blog. Just found you today. I don’t update my blog as often as I should. I lost a son and know I should write more to help all other mothers who lose children. It’s like you trouble – cancer- it’s only people who have experienced what you are going through who can fully appreciate what you are battling with. Faith in God and a strong sense of self-preservationget you through each day. God bless you.

  27. I am glad you have found a job Anna, it has been a month now since you started it, how is it going?
    Keep being positive and I’m sending healing vibes your way from the Angels.

  28. Will to live is the best medicine <<<<< Indeed it is and it's a pleasure to meet you.
    I love that you're a survivor- same here. (I was diagnosed with an arachnoid cyst on my brain stem a year ago and live with 2 and 3 day debilitating migraines.) Very health conscious. (Lots of green tea, cayenne, ginger, etc.) Much of the time I fee nauseous, other times I'm racked with pain- I do feel like I live with cancer too, believe me.) But I don't "feed the monster" – I do understand your fight and your triumph over would-be tragedy! Your site is a pleasure and again, it's a pleasure to meet you. You're an inspiration. Take care. xo

  29. Oh dear TWO women with dementia? I hope you are still there – I think they need your attitude toward life. I’m the primary caregiver for my husband who has dementia along with other symptoms of Cortical Basal Degeneration – such a long name for such an icky disease. I can barely take it – not a good nurse – I don’t know how you handle two! It is funny how they don’t lose all of their personality traits though. He sits and sleeps all day ………………… you take care!

  30. Oh me again! I love you posts, i am all over your blog reading your stories ๐Ÿ™‚ May I also recommend Julie Dalinuk for nutrition info for inflammation of the body of ALL kinds, arthritis, food allergies, skin conditions. pretty much everything! Nutrition is so important and the only way to get healthy is to start from the inside out. ๐Ÿ™‚ Im working on a new blog site that is aimed at helping people with nutritional needs and understanding different food groups and making TASTY recipes that everyone will enjoy. Its still under construction but maybe one day it will help you

  31. Hi, my heart is pained for you yet somehow there is a joy after reading this post, your will and your hope gives me more faith and my heart feels grateful!

    How are you doing now? Health-wise, job-wise and so on? May our Lord be your strength today and ever more in Jesus Name! Bless you!

  32. Great blog! Do you have any hints for aspiring writers? I’m planning to start my own website soon but I’m a little lost
    on everything. Would you recommend starting with a free platform like WordPress or
    go for a paid option? There are so many choices out there that I’m
    completely confused .. Any recommendations? Thanks!

  33. Congratulations on our new job. It is challenging work but very rewarding. I have so much stress I am afraid it will kill me earlier than I want. All you do read about how stress causes such diseases.
    Hope uor gout is better.

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