I’m stuck.

I’m back after many weeks of rebloging only.
You see, lately I’m so very tired that I’m not able to write.
But I’m writing about that I’m not able to write. 🙂 !
You know what I mean. I’m not able to write something meaningful.
I’m stuck on my job.
And I’m trying to figure out how to get unstuck without quitting.

As you know from my previous posts I’m working as a caregiver for this elderly Lady. She is 97 y.o. healthy, but she have dementia.

I quit this job last year, but I come back few months ago and I promised myself and her Family that I’m not going to quit again.
How foolish of me.
I probably forget that I’m only human.

So here I’m totally burned out, hoping to find the way out.
The Lady and her Family they all know that I’m not doing to well.
A month ago one of the Sisters asked me:”How are you doing Anna?”
So I told her about my High Blood Pressure.
And they send me on one week vacation.
Well, it helped a little, but I’m back how I was before.

The funny thing is that nobody ask me anymore how I’m doing. 🙂 !

I hope that some day, soon, somebody is going to tell me:”Anna, we are very sorry, but we don’t need you anymore.”

So for now I;m dreaming about White Christmas and about being unstuck. 🙂 !

Thank you for visiting.
God bless you all.

Pray for Peace

62 thoughts on “I’m stuck.

  1. Hi Anna, being a caregiver for an elderly person is incredibly draining and difficult. I was caregiver for my mother.But you have an added burden the elderly person you care for has dementia. I can only imagine how stressful that is. Unless someone has done what you are doing they don’t understand. I wish I could give you some words that would help you but words are cheap and meaningless in some ways. Just know that many people do understand some of what you are going through and therefore you are not alone. I think the only thing you can do is dig deep inside yourself and find your inner strength. What I do with my blog is just write when I feel like it and don’t do it for anyone but myself. I don’t do it for the likes or comments. I know my dyslexia will be a handicap for me but I don’t care I just write. People will read and understand even if they don’t respond and it will help unburden you. I send my love and best wishes. Louise

  2. I know the feeling of being stuck. I currently have three foster kids under my care. I normally only have these kids for 2-3 months until they go back to their biological parents. In his case, they have no parents anymore. They are put for adoption and no one has adopted them yet. I’ve had them for three years and I’m burned out. They have so many issues that not even professionals can help. I’m became an angry person because I want to give them back but I feel sad because am I that they have. I’ve been struggling financially so I need their extra income but it’s hard when your not happy anymore of what you do.

    1. Congratulations on the initiative to write!

      You said, “ I feel sad because am I that they have.”
      And let me tell you, that’s the answer, YOU are what they have.
      So, this is matter God has placed in His hands, and you need to consider, accept, and deal with it.

      Please! Please! Please !!! Ask the Lord for Help!

      Lord, how do I care for these children because I can not do it, and they need me. (imagine yourself in the same place of these children, depending on someone).

      Then they and you need the Lord’s help.
      Ask! Ask! Ask! Please!

      Thank you, I hope may the Lord respond to you.
      Health, peace and hope for you and the children.
      Praying for all!

      1. Thank you!!!! That’s exactly what I do, I ask for God to give me the strength to overcome this. Thank you so much for your kind words.

      2. Do this sincerely, in faith, ask for His guidance, the Lord will hear you!
        Keep your hope because what you are doing is very important to these people, to you and to Him. You are saving lives.

    2. Hi Yoly! I have read your response .In past years I had worked with children and I can understand about burnout. My heart goes out to you. May God refresh you and equip you with all you need to work in a capacity of love, understanding and patience. Only God knows the need of each persons heart and it is He that can heal the deep hurts. 🙂

  3. i’m sorry to hear of these pains, weaknesses & challenges.
    thank you for having the energy & courage to share.
    wishing you calm, relaxation & ease
    as you breathe in
    & out.

  4. I hope you get to hear what you need and want to hear. I Wish I had words to make it better. I can thank you for sharing something that is so personal and hard to share. I hope maybe, another vacation at least?

  5. Are you the caregiver 7 days a week? If so, you need to let them know that you need 2 days off per week! That is too much for one person to handle. I am praying for you and bless you that you can do this. I’ve thought about going into that field, but fear I am too old to handle it.

  6. “I probably forgot that I’m just human.” it’s beautiful!!

    Hint, if you are doing it is because you need. Then pray to the Lord and ask:

    The Lord knows that I need to do this work that I propose to do, I ask for your help, to that I have the right and effective actions to take care of that person; and I ask for your help to take care of my own health. Amen!

    Health and Blessings !!

  7. Hi Anna, take care of yourself. I write about being stuck all the time, most of the time. Sometimes it goes off in a different direction. Sometimes it doesn’t and it’s all good anyhow.


  8. Good mornin Anna,
    That’s tough ain’t it?

    But try to think of it this way…God is using you to help that poor lady, and He’s providing you with a way to pay your bills at the same time.
    So many of us have jobs that don’t directly help people as a function of our employment…but Anna does. ☺

  9. Do things out of the ordinary, break the monotony…walk to the post office instead of driving, walk the neighborhood, write about what it means to wake up on the green side of the grass, write about everything and write about nothing…just be different… 🙂

    Dust if you must, but wouldn’t it be better to paint a picture or write a letter,
    Spend time with a friend, bake a cake or plant a seed,
    Ponder the difference between want and need?
    Dust if you must, but there’s not much time, with rivers to swim and mountains to climb,
    Music to hear, songs to sing and books to read,
    Friends to cherish and a life to lead.
    Dust if you must, but the world’s out there with the sun in your eyes, the wind in your hair,
    A flutter of snow, a shower of rain.
    As this day will not come around again.
    Dust if you must, but bear in mind,
    Old age will come and it’s not kind.
    And when you go — and go you must,
    You, yourself will make more dust!

  10. Anna:

    You don’t need any fancy reason to post.
    We’re here for you, in our virtual blog world, no matter what.
    My grandfather always told me:
    “Do what you can, and don’t do what you can’t.”

    The family is negotiating this blindly, too.
    They’re only human as well.
    They are hoping your miracle will continue for them.

    Wishing you the best,


  11. Anna … Sometimes we need to move and give it a GO.. Find something that may give meaning to life.. Or take care of her in a way that everyone else start taking care of you ❤

  12. Hi, Anna – what a dilemma for you, to want to give care to your patient but struggling with the effects of it on you. I wish you well and simply say this – if you drain yourself you can’t care for your patient. And if you are empty, you stand a chance of becoming ill yourself. Take care of yourself so you can take care of others.

  13. I get a lot of fatigue, have you thought of taking some vitamins to help, I did a gene test with Dr Amy Yasko and found out I had a lot of gene defects which contribute to my fatigue amongst other things, my mother was taken by cancer as was my father, any way onto the positive I now take a number of vitamins mainly B’s and D as well as some other special blends Dr Yasko makes and wow what a difference, it is not a cure but it is a treatment and makes it all more manageable. 🙂

  14. Hello Anna, I understand how hard it is for you at the moment. You are not stuck, not at all. Everything possible is going to come your way. You are a treasure to humanity and I love the way you share your moments with us. Keep strong and keep going, please do not stop. you are still on the journey girl, keep going. And remember you are not alone, we are all walking this journey, life is not easy. I wish you happy days and wonderful preparations for Christmas 2017! Cheers to you Anna. Take care of yourself. I hope I will see some more writings from you. Kisses!

  15. Eeewwww what a crappy situation!!! I know what u mean! I Actually had a crappy job which burned me out, and i quit it. And im so happy for that decision!! I would say quit that job!!! Doesn’t matter what u promised, next time u know not to promise too big things and u care for urself better.
    But ofc if u can handle that then awesome,… Maybe u can look for something else on the side anyways hehe. But hang in there!!! Im here for ya even tho im random, but anyways, sucks those situations! They don’t last forever either tho! 🙂 ❤

  16. In the bustle that is our everyday life, we are beset by demands we sometime feel unable to meet. It is at such times we need to know that just for a few short hours we will be allowed a brief respite; a space we can call ‘my time’.

    Human nature is too frail for any one person to become an automaton, but small children are a 24/7 obligation unless at school or being cared for by another adult for a short period. An older person with dementia is like a child too, and equally demanding.

    We humans are fallible and need periods of time to ‘re-charge our batteries’ in order to make us fit for purpose. It is not weakness to admit feeling tired when we need rest, but it is all too common for us to struggle against the most natural of all human inclinations since our birth – the need for rest through relaxation and sleep that helps us ‘knit up the ravelled sleeve of care’ as Shakespeare put it.

    I hope you find the strength to continue helping those in your care as well as writing your deeply compelling postings.

  17. Taking care of an elderly individual offer go overlooked. But the internal rewards and the appreciation will never be forgotten. It’s a gift for those that can assist those that can no longer take care of themselves. My grandmother died at 98 and there were 3 of us that took care of her since she was 90 when her dementia got to the point she could no longer function on her own. I applaud what you do. I hope you get better soon yourself and are able to find time to heal. You will be in my thoughts. TC

  18. Caring for someone is hard work…physically and mentally. I hope you know and realize how valuable you are to those you care for… taking care of someone with dementia is difficult. God bless you… and strengthen you ♡

  19. I like your site, don’t worry about getting stuck or brainfarts, we all get them at times. Just keep trudging on and power through it.

  20. God bless you. You are such an inspiration to me and so many others. Our prayers are with you. May the Lord continue to strengthen and uphold you. Your comments brought to mind this verse:

    Psalm 73:26

    My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart, my portion forever.

    I just purchased your book, and I’m eager to start reading it. I know it will be a blessing since I am also working on a book based on my overcoming prostate cancer. I will keep you posted on my progress.

    Thanks also for the likes you have been posting on my blog. i appreciate the encouragement.

  21. Hello Anna. My Grandmother had Alzheimer’s and I watched it drain my mom to the point she could barely stand. I appreciate the effort you put into staying, but I totally get how hard it was for my mom to care for her mom who she loved. I can only imagine how tough it is for you. I pray that you find the strength you need and maybe God’s promise that in our weakness His strength is made perfect. Stay encouraged and keep fighting until your done, I am certain you are more help than you know.

  22. Thank you for your post. And thank you for visiting my blog. I’m praying for you. You are so honest and you write simply what is in your heart. I think you have found a community that cares and prays for you. God bless.

  23. Caregiving is a difficult but rewarding job. If writing is an outlet for you then write while at work. Maybe include your patient in your writing if possible. Don’t stop writing though😊

  24. I love your honesty. If we wait for someone else to give us permission to live our lives we will be stuck forever as long as it serves their needs. Others will always figure things out for themselves as long as you are true to you, the most important person! What are your needs? You have full permission. If we don’t follow the soul we get sick and that gets our attention.
    love and respect

  25. I would definitely try going Vegan and see how you feel after a few weeks, I have experienced nothing but good stuff. Clean Blood will give you energy, I was amazed how much more energy I have gotten by going vegan, it is so awesome! and it will bring the high BP down, that is a scientific fact. New Year, New Start, you can do it!!!!

  26. Anne, Thank you for sharing your daily thoughts,struggles, and triumphs AND for reaching out to read my blog. We all go through daily struggles and know you are not alone, we are with you as God is with you. You also have free will to make your own choices and set healthy boundaries to take care of you. You can’t take care of any one else unless you take care of yourself first. April

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